It has been a long time since I have
posted anything on this blog, but there is something inside me that is
screaming out to be shared. I was sitting here in school, completely silent and
studying about Sufi love(if you don’t know it has to do with something about
Islam), then suddenly I just felt this thing in me screaming out, “Are you
doing what you should be doing?” This question hit me like a brick. It is in
reference to the question of fulfilling my purpose in life. I joined this
school and am studying these things to bring glory to God in some way at least
that was my initial intention. However, now it seems like I have been caught
in some sort of trap. Everything that I have been doing has been for
selfish motives and selfish gains. Somewhere something went wrong. It transformed
into me wanting to graduate not to help people, but just to get done with
school. I lost that intention and I got sucked into the trap of living for me,
myself, and I.
I
have been reading this book called Radical (well actually listening to the
audio version since I study all the dang time) and it has really challenged a
lot in me. It has turned my comfort upside down and really made me look at
myself to see what I am truly living for. Am I living for a successful graduation, marriage, family, job,
or even church service? Or am I living for something greater then all that:
God? This coming season at Calvary Chapel Sawgrass we are going to be taking a
challenge with the youth of not just being a FAN for Jesus, but a Follower.
In layman terms, being a fan is completely different from a follower. The fan
is the one that will cheer for their team or even come up with some cool songs
to praise their greatness. Even though he does these things, there is
not really anything required of him. The fan doesn’t have to come to the games,
nor does he really have to put in work like the team does. In actuality, many
times, he can leave early and even skip certain events when things don’t go his
way. On the other hand, the follower is a completely different story. The
follower is in it through thick and thin. He is the one that gives up his livelihood
to learn and be like the one he follows. He is like certain individuals who
gave up their successful fishing business or a certain famous religious leader
who gave up that title. These are followers. They are the individuals who
really live out what they believe. They don’t walk away when things get
tough; they truck on and keep fighting, whether it is an outer struggle or
one within.
I
am personally starting a journey to set myself on the right path. Not the path
of self-indulgence or self-concern, but the path of living for the ONE who
changed my life. I am going to search for answers to questions like how to transform
the things I am doing now for Christ. What are ways that I can serve not just
in Church, but also outside it as well. I know for myself, it is time to make a
change. Are you up for the challenge? Its time to make a difference in
this world.
p.s. This
little spiel of mine might not have anything to do with you. If not then…oh
well =)
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