This week I have been
wrestling with a few things about myself. Constantly, I continually see my
flaws and shortcomings. My biggest issue right now is just being lazy. In
Romans 12:11 it states “Do not be slothful (it
means extremely lazy…. Like a sloth lol) in
zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord.” (ESV). This is the essence
of my life, I constantly want to do things for God and serve him, but I am to
dang Lazy… anyway, I have a point to this. God likes to use people like me that
have problems or have major screw ups. So if you a person that keeps messing up
in life; God has a plan for you.
Take Jacob, the Son of
Isaac who is the Grandson of Abraham. Jacob’s name is actual Israel and he
became the father of the Israelites (hence the name). However, do you know who
this man actually was? All this favor that was upon him in life he stole. Literally,
he stole the favor of God. See, Jacob had a brother named Esau who was
technically the first born. The first born in those days would receive all the
inheritance and birthrights, so if there was any blessings, Esau was meant to
get it; however, Jacob was a deceitful fellow and stole all that inheritance
with the help of his Mom. Thus, this sly fellow became the founder of the
Israelite people by stealing all of the inheritance from his brother. Now I
won’t get into the whole story for it is long and you can just read the Bible
for it, but essentially after the theft his brother wanted to kill him. I mean
he was full of rage and his bro was one of those muscular hairy guys that like
to go hunting with his bare hands. So Jacob ran (I don’t blame him lol)….
The crazy thing is
that even though Jacob stole all of this, God began to do an amazing work in
him. God took a man who was technically not supposed to be the one with his
entire father’s inheritance, and transformed him into a man of God. This is
shown in Genesis 33 when Jacob runs into Esau after seven years of running. He
walked up to him, gave him gifts and repented. I mean this dude was preaching
to Esau (they had a very emotional reunion). Anyway, this Jacob ended up being
the father of the Israelite people, which if you don’t know the story, is how
we essentially get Jesus lol.
See God takes people
like me, you, Paul (he was a killer), Peter (he was a liar and abandoned Jesus
in his time of need), and many other messed up individuals and uses them for
his purpose and glory. He transforms us from the inside out and all we have to
do is seek him first. So if you have been discouraged about your usefulness,
take heart knowing that God has got you. He is going to take you and use you in
such a way that is it is going to blow your mind. All you have to do is seek him first. As Christians we say that
phrase a lot, but it is completely true. There is no way that you are going to
find your true worth, confidence, acceptance, (fiil in the blank) to the extent
that you desire in anything else but him. So yea… this is my spiel and I know
not many people read it, but I just had to share all this with my peeps… peace
out people…
For the
eyes of the LORD range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts
are fully committed to him. 2 Chronicles 16:9
